RIP Camino

[camino]

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

Everyone knows my beloved horse, Camino. He was training to become my Grand Prix mount while I was competing in Britan. Well, last week I got a call saying that he pulled his suspensary jumping a 5'6 oxer, and it was sorta severe. I was worried, but told them to do all they could. Just today, I got a call saying he tripped on some ice and did the splits with his back legs, breaking his pelvis which made him pee uncontroably. Funny injury, I know.

Anyways, they asked me If I wanted them to put him down or go into surgery. After explaining to me all the pain he was in, and the chance of recovering was slim, I finally said to just put him down. But what really hurts me is I never got to say goodbye, or see him in his final hours. However, I am still staying in Great Brittan to compete and my parents say they will be buying me a FEI Dutch Warmblood, they have already looked at him and say he is just right for me.

I know, I know. Soo many deaths. But this isn't a joke. Camino really is dead, and I am so heartbroken. That horse was my life, I bought him as a 4 year old with a torn hock so bad the vet said he'd never trot again, but he became the 5th best Mini Prix jumper in Canada. I'll miss him soo much. I've been pretty much hiding it from my friend that I am currently living with, tommorow we are going to a concert, but I'm so sad...I don't know. I can't carry this.

Here is his photo album.
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[Magic]

Oh, Camino..
I know that everyone gives their deepest sympathies and that my few words wont really make a difference, but I'm really, truly sorry. I've never really had anything close of my own that has past, but.. Oh, I don't know!! I'm so sorry, Camino.

Anna xx

[sibber-chow]

I give you my deepest empathy. I know the feeling and bid you my best wishes, Camino!

[OH HAI SPI!]

Like Magic says, a few words like "i'm sorry" never help the pain any, I know how you feel I really do In the past 5 years I have lost a Grandma and a Grandfather, 2 wonderful horses, and a dog, and a few of our pet rabbits. Something that helped me was having someone there for me, someone I could really talk to and the'd understand. If you ever need to talk to someone you can PM me you want to. And even though this doesn't help much, I am very sorry.

[Wildfire]

I am truly sorry... It sounds like he had such an amazing life with you and every moment that you shared with him will be in your heart forever, but he is definitely in a better place now where he can be pain free and enjoy doing whatever he wants. I recently had to put my dog down and fortunately I was there with her when she passed. It's terrible when you can't be with them to say goodbye. I never got to say goodbye to my great grandfather when he passed away. But look at the life he has had that he may have never been able to experience! If it wasn't for you and your dedication to him, he may have not been able to trot as the vet said. I believe that you truly made his life so much more worth living for. I'll be praying for you!