[I never left And I Still] I love you

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last posts, Lassa's turn. LASSAN AND RAINE ONLY
Lassan stood quietly and observed as Raine's last breaths came. The world seemed to be moving in a fast, noiseless blur around him as he stood like a statue. Raine's crimson blood pooled around his daggers and splattered on his ebony pillars. He still stood, not even looking at her, but hearing every word she could manage to get out. The first words he heard were 'I'm sorry'. To say that during her last few minutes of life, Lassan knew that it was true.

He glanced down to her form now. His ptics trailed along her bodice. By her tail was Indukala trying to save the foal. Anil and the other stag were now standing back a bit. Raine then said to the group that they would regret this day.

Her next words then struck him. He knew she loved him. He knew that he did too. Their love had been during hard times for the herds on Isola Dei Dei, so Lassan never got that much time to love her back. He had been too busy trying to keep the rest of his herd, and alliances safe from the Darks. He had loved her, he had just neglected to show it. He figured that Raine going off and breeding without his permission was a sign to him from her, telling him that she accepted that he didn't love her. Lassan had been furious beyond belief when he learned about Raine mating to a Dark and then running away.

After ten minutes of silence, Lassan started to speak. "Indukala. Night." he said addressing the vixen and beta. "Take the foal back to Liberta. Indukala shall be it's gaurdian until it's safe in Liberta. Make sure no harm comes too it." the whole time he had spoken he had been gazing into the distance. "Anil." he called out to the warrior of Rocas. "Go inform Fiana and Torchwood of this."

He remained silent for a few more minutes and then addressed the leader of the land that they were in. "I'm sorry fellow stag for intruding on your lands. We will be leaving." He glanced down to Raine's form once more and whispered "But I did love you."

He finally moved his crown as he looked to Anil, Night and Indukala. "Go." he said rather sternly, almost yelling the command in anger. First River left, the love of his life, gone. Then his good friend Saratoga left, he could only hope to see her again. Now it was Raine, dead and gone for good. He would never see the vixen again in his life on earth.

He looked back into the woods and said, so Indukala and Night could hear him, "Flame. Name the foal Flame." With that he broke into a gallop. He didn;t know where he was going, he was just running. When ever he felt like it, he would stop running and return to Liberta, but for now he needed time alone; to think.


The vixen felt her spirit rise, as she saw her own body. It was clear she wasn't going to heaven. The phantom whispered in her love's aud, "Lassan, my true love.." Two pair of running hooves pounded though the forest. Slowly, she fading back, the palomino looked as if she were alive. "Don't be afraid love, it's me. I may not be hole, but I'm still here with you..." the words whispered in his auds....

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[Vel]

Lassan continued to run and run and run. He soon ran out of the claimed land that Raine had died in and was now in Belle Valle. He kept running, whizzing past mares and lone stags, sometimes almost running into one. The world was a blur, LAsan's bodice numb. He didn't even feel the crimson liquid run down his pillars as they got scraped and scratched by the brush. He jsu didn;t care right now.

He kept his speed, runnign htrough numerous feilds and forests that he didn't even know were there, he just kept going. Why? Why did this have to happen to him? River, Saratoga, Raine, all gone. The only one he could still see was Saratoga, but she had been like a sister and best friend to him.

Lassan stoppped when his hooves hit the red sands. His bodice collapsed and he let out a sigh closing his orbs. when he opened them he swore he could hear Raine. No. the thought. Its not possible. Is it? He hten let out a loud whinny and yelled "Why?! Why Raine!?"

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Her faded ghosty figure reared, coming down with a soft thud. "You figured it out." the vixen's voice was the wind, no like to it. Slowly, she began to fade in, to where it was like she was back again........ No muse

[Vel]

Lasan layed there for a good ten minutes, just mulling tihngs over in his mind. Yes, he knew why she bred to that filthy dark stud, but he didn't understand why she had to run away and die while giving birth to th foal.

Lassan then lifted ihs ebony crown and got to his feet, wandering over to where the sea crashed onthe shore. Lassan stepped back as he heard her voice. Was he goign crazy? He didn't know. He continued to back up and halted when he saw something.... well thats what it was. something. Something seemed to be materializing in front of him. He flattened his auds and waited for the thing's next actions

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The figure faded in, till she was looking exactly like her old Three-year-old self. She sighed. "You don't get it, do you?!" the figure whailed. "I aceptd you were done with me, that you fithy bastards are all alike! All you do if fake love so you can knock up with a mare. Well here's news, I loved you even though you didn't back, that you were done with me. All those months, waiting, hoping you would come back to me, tell me you loved me. Give up your life with those other whores. I was already dead inside, why would I care if I'm not going to heaven!? Nothing matters now! I gave up, all hope was lost. I used to sit there for days, waiting where we fist met, where you saved me." the figure's auds layed back against her neck. "I wanted you back, I was hoping by doing that you would come back to me. I was wrong. You were to fed up with other crap. Now I can't see my foals, and..." The ghost reared to full hight, her angry hooves flailed. Her nares flared, furious. Her kissers curled up, showing her ivories, a vicious snarl ripped from the phantom's chest. "You have no clue how horrible my life is, how broken, empty and alone after you left me. Why I did what I did, why I left. I was dead inside, I was happy after the ending. My heart aches for you. You have no clue what pain I live in, how much you caused!!" the creature squealed angrily, her purple optics filled with anger, pain and miery....

[Vel]

Lassan stood and stared i ndisbelief. Was this apparition of Raine really here in front of him, or was it his mind playing tricks on him? He had lost three equines he was very close to in the course of two weeks. Maybe it was the depression, anger and anguish. Maybe it wasn't. But this, Raine standing there, couldn't be true. Lasan didn't believe in sprits, spooks, ghosts, spectres, phantoms, or whatever else they were called. There was no logical reason that Raine would be here, talking to him, unless he was now certifiably insane, which was the only solution he could come up with.

But I did love you Raine. I was so busy trying to keep themembers of Liberta from harm from the Darks that I barely had any time to rest. My time was either spent plotting, brooding, or trying to recruit members for an army. he said out loud. He was absolutley gobsmacked that he was talking to a dead horse. One that he shouldn;t even be seeing, or hearning. It wasn't possible.

ooc-- i believe in ghosts, etc but Lassan doesnt

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The creature was furious, a snarl ripped from her throat. "LIES!! You loved RIVER!! it snarled visiously. Her hooves flailed as she reared up again. Her ivories bared, and snapped viciously. Her hoove pawed at the earth, dirt, rocks and other stuff flying up in the air. The intention of rearing was to get rid of her anger, but it just pissed her off more. She snorted and reached out, her ivories clamping with all her force, searching for Lassan's muzzle or neck. Hoping to draw blood.....[/color]

[Vel]

Lassan's optics grew wide as 'Raine' started to rear and scream at him about loving River. It was true. "I LOVED YOU BOTH!" he screamed at her. "She left for the same reason you did! Atleast she didn't go off and die on me. Shes still out there somewhere and when she's ready, she'll come back!" He snorted adn shoook his crown. I was trying to protect all of you from the Darks when they were attacking. The outcome was worse I lost my River and my dear friend Saratoga, her for much the ame reasons as well. And then you. You are gone for ever now!" After Lassan spoke, he thought that he was now insane. Just when he thought things couldn't get worse, the spectre of Raine charged at him, trying to sink her ivories into him. He felt a pain, but it was different then getting bitten if she were there it was almost like a cold burn. He squealed and backed up knowing thta he had no power over the dead.

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The figure was so pissed she couldn't think strait. "WHY CAN'T YOU EVER UNDERSTAND ME?! YOU STILL HAVE NO CLUE WHY I GAVE UP MY FILTHY LIFE!! Get over me, you don't love me!! River left because she thought it was best for you if you didn't have to see her get any older, to die before you! Good GOD LASSAN!! The mare was SEVEN!! Her time was almost up anyway!!" she was trembling with anger, depression and fear. "How I LONGED for someone to comfort me when I had nightmares of my past, so bad I went into depression for days, not eating a single THING!! How lifeless I felt!! ALONE!! BETRAYED!! I used to stay up for days, afraid if I did, he would come back. Murder, forcing me at ONE YEAR OLD!! Laying there before my masters got me out, BLEEDING TO DEATH WHILE HE STILL TOURTURD ME!! My ribs AND INSIDES WERE BATTERED TO A FREAKIN PULP!! My.. F.. Flowers bitten clean off, my masters didn't care, they set me in a freakin pasture, with no food or water, bare in winter. I used to cower with my back to the fence, the wolves turtoured me. I... I..." she broke off with a cough as she collapsed, shaking so hard it made her mane fly in a furry. Random cough spams rattled her body like someone shook her so hard her head might fall off.....[/color][/font]

[Vel]

"YOUR'RE RIGHT, I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY!" he yelled back. "I'm never going to 'get over' you Raine!" he said. "You're talking about this as if you were still in this realm of existence, which you are most definalty not!" Lassan let out a exasperated sigh and stamped a dagger. Lassan then became angry when Raine started to talk about River's life almost being over. "You're just jealous Raine." he said calmly. "River's life was NOT almost over. Any healthy equine can live to be in their twenties or older. River was young. Yes she was a few years older than myself, bu that doesn't mean that she'll die before me."

"How in God's naem was I suppossed to know you were having nightmares Raine?! I don't have time to check on you every bleedin' second of the day! I have a hwole herd to look after and make sure that they are alright as well. You could have told me Raine. You could've told me." He rolled his orbs as she started again. "I know your younger life was a living hell! You've told me, and I am truely sorry for you and wish that it never would have happened. No one deserves that! No one!" he pasued to draw in a breath and then continued. "So don't pull that with me! I'm not going to feelany differnt." Raine then started to cough violently and Lassan stepped back. "Raine? Are you ok?" he asked. He then menatally kicked himself for asking that. She was dead. For all he knew, he was here screaming at nothing and her ghost was just a figment of his imagination.

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