&& that heaven is overrated

[OH HAI SPI!]

»» Were can I turn?
'Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty
I'm so unsure of

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»» vodka sneered as she thought of her mother. she was a mess after the twins died. and hannibal? he didn't give a fuck. or so it seemed. spirit hadn't even come looking for her, neither had hannibal. well it seemed he wasn't able. she had heard he died. her mother really must be a mess now. she loved him even after he did all this to her. ' dumbass ' she mumbled to herself. she just couldn't stand it anymore, so she ran away. she like it though. she didn't have to listen to her mother cry about the foals and how hannibal wasn't there. it was her choice to get pregnant, it was her fault. her mom loved her, but she just hadn't been showing it. she really was a mess, and vodka felt she couldn't fix it. she'd let her mom fix it herself. besides vodka was pretty grown up now, she could take care of herself. she could do whatever she wanted when she wanted, she didn't have her mother to tell her anything. she could do that at home though, spirit didn't seem to care. vodka was really hurting, she just didn't know what to do and trying to run away from the pain never helps. its more of a temporary solution. vodka sighed as she watched the sun sink below the horizon. it would soon be dark. she would never have said it, but she really hated being alone in the dark. she wasn't exactly scared, just very nervous. sometimes at night she wished she could be home, with her parents. but she would assure herself saying she'd be fine, she was all grown up.

»» the sky was clear and beginning to fill with stars, as the sky began to turn a pale blue almost grey color. the air felt cool, it would be another cool night. but the temerature never bothered her. looking at herself, vodka wished she was never born. she closed her eyes tightly, as much as she wanted to forget about her family she couldn't she just couldn't. but she couldn't go back home, no, no way. if they wanted her to come back they could come find her. she wished someone else would find her though, and she could just go on with a new life in a new land in a new herd. she just wanted a fresh start away from all traces of her family. she continued walking, dodging the low hanging branches, and making sure to step over the roots sticking up out of the ground. the forest was so dark even during the day, it was horrible at night. and who knows what was out there lurking around. she wasn't worried about being attacked and killed, in fact it would have been the best thing to happen to her in the few weeks she had been out here. ' God ' she began looking to the starry sky ' just kill me now.. ' she begged. she didn't think he was going to let her get out of it that easily.

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»» Tell me why
I feel so alone
'Cause I need to know
To whom do I own

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»» vodka
»» words
»» conspiracy by paramore
»» notes

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[big daddy lizzeh.]

With the sun lowering in the skies, Marut skirted through Terra Scure, still on a mission. His blue eyes were determined, as he dodged low lying branches, so that he wouldn't scratch himself on them. As a charred tree came into veiw, the Era stallion stopped, taking a deep breath, and shaking his head. Eyes wandered around, noticing how great patches of the ground were burned and charred.

Hannibal had been here. Nostrils quivered, and he let out an angry snort. Marut knew that his mate and daughter were within Orpheus' lands, and that Hannibal was within Felwood. And now, Marut had to start forming a plan to get his beloved back safely. But, perhaps that could wait.

The scent of a mare came upon the wind, and his ears flicked. A mare in these parts wasn't, naturally, a good sign. The white stallion headed through the trees once more, the dying light making it hard for him to distinguish wehre he was going. Finally, he came upon the young mare, and he sighed in relief. She wasn't in any trouble.

"Miss, you do know that these lands aren't good for mares to wander in, right," Marut's words were gentle, and a small breeze swept around his body, then hers, playing with her mane and tail, whispering to her that everything would be alright. However, Marut stopped walking, when the scent of Hannibal became apparent upon her. Was this one of his mares that he just threw out? Or was his a relative? Ears flicked back, confusion settling into his eyes, as he stood there.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

{ marut }
{ 265 }
{ not afraid (eminem) }
{ lizzeh '10 }

[OH HAI SPI!]

»» Were can I turn?
'Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty
I'm so unsure of

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»» she wasn't sure if she should be worried about seeing another equine or happy. maybe this was her ticket to a new home, and then again, maybe not. it was kind of nice to see anothers face, it had been awhile since she had seen another equine, who actually talked to her. his words were gentle, and calming. the wind played with her mane and tail, and flew by her ears. everything seemed it would be alright. but then a confused look crossed his face, and she hadn't even said anything. did she smell of her parents? maybe hannibal, but he was dead wasn't he? how could he still be a threat, if he was dead? ' i know.. but neither is the land my father posses.. ' she knew hannibal was a threat at the time he was alive. but then she quickly corrected her sentence ' i mean possessed.. ' hate filled her eyes at the thought of him, and his land, and her mother. she just wished she could totally forget them. but it just didn't seem possible. she looked so much like him, it was obvious she was his daughter, she couldn't hide it.

»» she planned on never going back to inferno, even if hannibal was dead. she didn't want to see her mother again. it was so hard. all she wanted was to be a family again, a wonderful, happy family. but her parents screwed that up. now she was here. she wondered if it could really get any worse. she thought it would be wonderful on her own, but in fact it was a very lonely life. and it just gave her more time to think about her home, and family. she really should have stayed and tried to help fix everything, but it seemed too hard. so she took what she thought was the easy way out. and now she could just blame it all on her parents.

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»» Tell me why
I feel so alone
'Cause I need to know
To whom do I own

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»» vodka
»» idk how many words
»» conspiracy by paramore
»» blah sucks.

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[big daddy lizzeh.]

The white stallion listened to Vodka speak, and he nodded slightly. This young mare had the colorations of her father, and he knew immediately that this was an offspring of Hannibal. But, she didn't seem like her sire. "You're one of Hannibal's children, aren't you? Listen, I don't know if you know or not.. but Hannibal is alive, and well. He has moved into Felwood, making it his own territory. A mare followed him into the lands, and I believe, by looking at you and thinking about what she looked like, that it was your mother." He stopped speaking, flicking his tail slowly behind his body. Marut had said enough about Hannibal for a while now, he hated speaking about the Dreadsteed. Shaking his head slightly, the white stallion flared his nostrils. "I'm sorry. I haven't introduced myself properly. I am Marut, Lead of the Eras."

He bowed slightly to her, and his eyes sparkled faintly as he watched her. She sure didn't seem to have the mean streak that Hannibal was known to have; in fact, she seemed quite calm and a nice horse to talk to.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

{ marut }
{ 188 }
{ not afraid (eminem) }
{ lizzeh '10 }

[OH HAI SPI!]

»» Were can I turn?
'Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty
I'm so unsure of

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»» she was shocked by his words. her father was alive?! and her mother followed him instead of looking for her. she really was a dumbass, and him?! she didn't even know what to say about him. she could feel her blood boiling within her. the filly didn't know what to say or do. she really wished he was still dead, and she was dead with him. it made her sick, this whole situation made her sick. she felt like racing back there and killing both of them herself. she hardly heard him introduce himself, she was too caught up in her own terrible thoughts. she looked up at him, still with hate in her eyes, but not towards him.

»» she spoke, trying to keep calm ' i am one of his children, though i hate to admit it. that bastard. but, i thank you for telling me about my parents. ' she said nodding her head. ' i'm vodka by the way, and its nice to meet you. ' she said smiling slightly, although it was hard for her to smile due to the circumstances.

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»» Tell me why
I feel so alone
'Cause I need to know
To whom do I own

[/blockquote][/blockquote][/right]

»» vodka
»» idk how many words
»» conspiracy by paramore
»» blah sucks.

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[big daddy lizzeh.]

Now the Era could tell that the news of Hannibal being alive affected her. He shifted his weight restlessly, and nostrils quivered. "I do not believe you have to feel such anger toward your parents, Vodka. I have been told they are worried about where you have gone to, and plan on finding you as soon as everything has settled down within their new lands." The stallion glanced around slightly, his blue eyes wondering if Hannibal was lurking, or if he had any spies that could tell him that his daughter was here, and talking to the Era Lead. Shaking his head slightly, Marut looked back to Hannibal's daughter, and a gentle smile crossed his maw. "If you would like, I could take you to their new territory. Although, your father wouldn't take too kindly to my appearance... we aren't on good speaking terms."

This caused his smile to transform into a smirk, knowing Hannibal would surely kill him on the spot if given the chance. He was a murderer, after all. Flicking his tail, the Era tilted his ears toward the filly, wondering if she would like to be escorted home or not. It was, of course, up to her.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

{ marut }
{ 201 }
{ not afraid (eminem) }
{ lizzeh '10 }